I’ve gained 20+ lbs and I’m right back where I started

On April 18, 2011 – I stepped on the scale in Coral Springs, FL and saw my “hell no” number. 

On April 24, 2016 – I stepped on the scale in North Brunswick, NJ and I saw a number only 3lbs away from the original “hell no” number.

Yea, I’ve got some spring cleaning to do in my life. 

I’ve gone from 159lbs, the lowest number I’ve ever seen on the scale when I was training for a bikini body building competition, back up to 182lbs. To be very honest, I was hovering around the mid-160s on a normal day, and then “magically” saw a number in the 170s more recently, but thought it would go back down when my schedule got better. 

Well, my schedule never got better, and my weight kept creeping up higher and higher. I’m pretty sure I felt better when I didn’t know the number too, but I couldn’t help stepping on the scale. I knew my clothes were getting tight – but I ignored the outfits in my closet that would tell me the truth. I knew I had gained more than a pound or two.

So here I am.

New job. New apartment. New city and state. And a brand new body that I really am not excited about. 

The good thing about moving into a new apartment is that you get to reset your kitchen. I basically stopped grocery stopping when I was in NYC so I didn’t have to throw out or bring much with me. In New Jersey, the grocery stores near the new place are SO much better. AND, I also started working with CVS/pharmacy again – so I’ve got an abundance of healthy snacks from the Gold Emblem Abound line to keep me from running downstairs at work to the campus grocery store that has every unhealthy snack known to man, displayed to entice college students (and staff). 

I really should have factored in how all this temptation and change would affect my waistline. 

I also really didn’t want to write this post. When I first started blogging in 2011, I was alllll about fitness, wellness, and weight loss. Oh.. the weight loss. And I’ve consistently lost weight… until now. I have more than enough reasons to use as excuses to explain my weight gain. Ya’ll already know the deal. BUT health is wealth.

Yes, that’s cliche… and makes me roll my own eyes, but it’s the truth. 

I can’t help but wonder if everything in my life would be a bit easier if I hadn’t gained these 20+ lbs. I’d have more energy, my self-confidence would be higher, and I would definitely be happier. I’m literally uncomfortable in my own skin right now. 

The other day when I was getting dressed, I turned off the bathroom lights so I didn’t have to see my extra rolls and bumps. Cause yea.. it’s visible. I refuse to wear Spanks everyday, so I do my best to dress for my new body type, but even then it doesn’t feel good.

So I’m here. 

Back at the beginning.

This would be the perfect time to launch full speed ahead into the new plan that I’ve decided to embark upon for the next few months to get my body right just in time for summer – but, I don’t actually have a plan just yet. Of course, I’m on the hunt, and I also have at least 10+ plans in emails that I could start to follow again. But this time is different. The only thing I’ve really committed to using is YorHealth MRP and healthier snacking with the Gold Emblem Abound products from CVS. 

All I can really say is that I am conscious of it and I’m working on it. Again.

Cause this extra chub life is for the birds. 

I’m proud to partner with CVS Pharmacy to promote their exclusive Gold Emblem and Gold Emblem Abound snack lines. I am being sponsored by CVS Pharmacy for my posts and activities, but all opinions expressed are my own, and all product claims or program details shared should be verified at CVS.com or with the appropriate manufacturers.

Have you ever gained back weight?

What do you do to motivate yourself when you feel like you are out of options?

What’s your favorite healthy snack that almost feels unhealthy?



  1. Faith says:

    It has happened to me more than once. But the thing is that you’ll get it off again. You did it once, you’ll do it again. Don’t beat yourself up. I think sometimes it is all about finding a program that you’re able to stick with and one that is in line with your lifestyle. You’ll get there because you have an amazing mindset.

    5.6.16 ·
    • Gosh – the cycle. It’s so frustrating (and heartbreaking), but I’m going to work on it.

      5.9.16 ·
  2. Udeme says:

    It happens! Thankfully, I’ve kept the bulk of my big weight loss off (70 lbs) but I had gained around 15 lbs since getting married. To stay motivated, I try to remember why I started and I think of all that I’ve learned on my journey. Then I just start to practice what I’ve learned and take things one meal and one day at a time. I also love trying new fitness classes to shake things up. You’re totally right about the kitchen reset. This helped a ton. I started cooking a ton when we moved to our new space and dropped 10 lbs so far. My fave healthy snacks as of late are skinny banana and chocolate muffins (you can find lots of versions on Pinterest) and I love plantain chips from Trader Joes.

    5.3.16 ·
    • Plantain chips with guac are one of my favorite snacks. And you’re totally right – remembering your why is so important. Right now, I’m in this stage where I am just disgusted with what I did to myself, but I know I need to pull myself out of this funk and hit the reset button for real.

      5.4.16 ·
  3. As I woke up this morning earlier than needed, I thought to myself I need some type of motivation. I pay Blink fitness too much money for over a year now and have only stepped into the gym three times within the last year. I’ve been sad and distracted by everything else that I stopped finding that motivation. I’ve avoided anything that looks like a scale! Although I don’t think i have gained much, I’ve been trying to get back in the swing of things by eating more fruits, less dairy, limited mimosa (that’s so hard to do), and running on Sundays. Kim, I need help too, I’ll be reading! Maybe we’ll motivate each other!

    5.3.16 ·
    • *insert claps!* Nellie (above) has this FB group that is uber helpful too (https://www.facebook.com/groups/WomenPrioritizingFitness/)

      I’ll admit that I’m not as active as I should be in the group, but I’m working on it. The mimosa struggle is REAL. In NJ, they don’t really do the unlimited brunch thing, so I’ve lucked out a bit.

      5.4.16 ·
  4. Nellie says:

    If anyone understands, its ME! My gain happened and I didn’t even realize it, I was so focused on one thing (crossing the finish line of the NYCM) that the weight gain was completely ignored. Now I look at my pictures and see how things were creeping out of control and I really had NO clue. I really hate the scale but ignoring it completely got me in a lot of trouble. You got this, completely. I’ve written this post several times–its real, its honest and people (like me!!) appreciate it.

    My favorite snack really these days is the boom chicka popcorn and clementines.

    5.2.16 ·
    • Writing this post was SO painful – but I’m right with you. I was avoiding the scale too. Maybe avoiding the scale is a sign? lol

      And Boom Chicka = bae – and I just got into Halos, not sure if they are clementines, but it’s another fruit that tastes like a small orange. 🙂

      5.4.16 ·

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