Last week I was invited to attend the Book launch for Happy Belly: A Woman’s Guide to Feeling Vibrant, Light, and Balanced by Nadya Andreeva. I knew it was about healthy living, curing your digestive woes, and achieving balance, so I was excited. Ya’ll know I am all about that lately. I will be writing a full book review soon, but as I am reading I came across this exercise that I couldn’t wait to share.
Nadya talks a lot of visualizations in her book, so she asked the reader to write a love letter to their body. She literally told the reader to stop reading, and write the letter before continuing the book. I was on the train, so I obviously kept on reading, but then the lights went out on the train. They quickly came back on… but then went out 2 more times, so I took that as a sign that I needed to take my phone out and start writing the letter. I am reading a paperback version, so there was no handy-dandy backlight to get me through the train power outage.
The point of the letter is to acknowledge how your body must feel after helping you get through everything you have been through in your life. I wasn’t sure if I should share this publicly… but in blogging, I find that the posts I hesitate sharing are generally the ones that need to be shared the most.
Before I thank you for all of the wonderful things you have done for me, I want to apologize for all of things I have done to harm you. There are so many times that you gave me signs that I needed to change my ways and I refused to listen.
Throughout my childhood and high school, you always allowed me to be active and play tons of sports…even when I didn’t want to. Injury after injury, sprain after sprain, you always bounced back and let me get back to things I love. Some days I wish that the sprains healed better, but now they serve as reminders to not push myself too far.
In college, you allowed me to stay up late, drink a bit, laugh a lot, and love even more. I still don’t understand why I had so much energy back then in comparison to how I feel now. I was able to function on little to no sleep and rarely had aches and pains.
After college, things got a little rough. Those months of chronic headaches nearly took me out, but in retrospect…maybe that was a sign that I needed to get out of that situation I was in. I needed to break free….and be more stress free. Thank you for getting me through long workdays despite the daily migraines. I wouldn’t have been able to stay living in NY if it weren’t for that job.
Now….Things have gone a bit crazy with you. Headaches, doctors, TMJ, muscle aches…. are you trying to tell me something? I joke that when I turned 25 my body started to fall apart and change drastically. You always get me through, but I know it doesn’t have to be this hard. I can make it easier for you.
In writing this out, it makes me realize all of the good you have done for me and yet I still struggle to give you proper tender, loving care. You need less stress, more nutrients and regular exercise. The doctors say that if I take off more weight, your joints will even feel better too.
I know we can do this together. Please keep giving me signs along the way to let me know how I am doing. I promise to keep working towards your wellness day after day until we are doing better.
I love you.