In all honesty…

The title and theme of this post was snatched from my new blogger/IRL bff, Allie from Vita Train For Life. After reading her recap of the FitBloggin Conference, this seemed like the perfect way to talk about this next phase of my fitness journey/ bikini competition journey. 

In all honesty... I know that I need to do something drastic to kick my butt into high gear. I’ve been on this weight loss, weight gain, let’s just eat intuitively, no what about Paleo, back to Weight Watchers… and everything else under the sun cycle for way to long. 

In all honesty… I haven’t worn a bathing suit in public for over 4 years. It’s been so long that I really stopped counting. I just don’t do it. 

In all honesty… I am tired of living in a body that I am not proud of, despite how everyone else feels when they look at me. When I try to be open and honest with friends about how I feel about my body, the comments I get are always super nice. “OMG, fat where?” “Lose weight? For what?” “You have curves! Embrace them!” But I know that I am not as healthy as I can be. 

In all honesty… I really want to train my body to be at a point where I have reached an optimal level of fitness and my knees no longer are an issue. The excess weight I carry does not help my knees at all. So for me, despite what others say, I know weight loss is a must. 

In all honesty… I know that I cannot do this alone so I am working with a new coach + trainer. 

Manifest Yourself Coach Matthew Matheson

As I was editing one of his photos for this post, I realized that he is the first man I have ever featured on Manifest Yourself! Now if you attended the A Healthy U Conference back in May, you realize that he looks pretty familiar. He was one of our panelists on the Mind, Body, and Soul Connection panel that I moderated. Needless to say… he was a big hit for his knowledge… and his good looks. #justsayin

After the conference, I wanted to pick his brain about competing, but I was just way too nervous. But my girl Cassandra kept on pushing me to reach out to him since her husband trained with Matthew and was getting some great results. Low and behold, after a few emails and a long chat at Starbucks this weekend, he’s officially my bikini competition coach. 

As an accomplished body building competitor himself, and a fabulous personal trainer, I get the best of both worlds! He’ll be planning out my meal plans and workouts from now until I compete. I have my eyes set on a show on November 15th in NYC, but I want to wait a bit before I register. (Ya’ll know me… let’s take this nice and easy – even though I know my new workout schedule will be far from easy.) We will officially start my training schedule next week!

In all honesty… I’m excited, but also so nervous. I was very candid in my initial conversation with Matthew too. I know that I will be looking to him for support, guidance, and motivation. Ya’ll know this past year has been a hot mess for me. (There’s really no other way to say it now!) So I’m doing this to reach all of my fitness/wellness goals AND to prove to myself that I can commit to this journey too. Fitness is probably the one area of my life where I struggle with sticking to my goals. 

Prepping for a bikini competition is all about discipline, focus, and determination. I know I have these traits in other areas of my life, so it’s about time I apply them to my wellness journey. So here we go! I hope that ya’ll will enjoy this next chapter of my personal journey to wellness. Here’s some insight to things you will be seeing:

  • Detailed workouts and meal plans
  • Mini- workout videos from my training sessions with Matthew
  • Vlogging on YouTube talking about staying motivated and inspired inside and outside of the gym
  • The highs, lows, and inbetweens of this journey
  • Insight from Matthew on obtaining optimal fitness
  • + MORE!

I thank you for reading this super long post, and I hope you’ll stay along for this crazy new phase of my life. I also want to shout out Allie again, for being such a huge supporter when I initially talked about wanting to do this at FitBloggin. She was so encouraging… and said that I am welcome to call/text/email whenever I start to freak out about this journey. So I’ve got Matthew, Allie, and a slew of friends who are uber supportive. Let’s do this!

Oh! And after reading this post from Emily this morning… I hope that YOU my readers will also be able to call me out on my *ish when you see me slipping. I need all the help and support I can get!

What is your biggest fear when you announce a new goal?

Who is in your support system?


*ALSO – my 1st Dietbet starts tomorrow! Hurry up and join us!*


  1. Eugene says:

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  2. Patty says:

    Congratulations! So excited you found the right coach for you. Looking forward to following your journey into competition. 🙂

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  3. Go! Go! Gooooooooooo!!!!!!!
    So proud of you!!! This is awesome!
    Please add me to your support system!

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  4. Cassandre says:

    I am beyond excited and happy for you.. this is going to be an awesome experience for you. Matthew is fantastic and I can’t wait to see the magic unfold in the next few weeks 🙂

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  5. The scariest part when announcing a new goal is just that it often may seem light years away. Love this, you, and can’t wait to follow your new adventure! xo

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  6. Carla says:

    Good Lord, woman! I would make working out a full time job if that’s who was training me. Motivation — yes!

    I put things out there but am always afraid that I just won’t do them or something will get in my way. However, I continue to push forward in my own way. You’ve got this and you’ll be amazing!

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  7. Allie says:

    Woot woot!!!!!! I don’t even know where to start with this. I love it. All of it. And I mean ALL of it 🙂 I meant what I said and I’m so ready to tackle this with you. Remember – put in the HARD work, surround yourself with people who lift you up and, most importantly, BELIEVE you can do it!

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    • Yes, Yes + Yes! Thanks so much Allie! I’ll be chatting a bit more about your pep talk tomorrow in my FitBloggin post. Apparently this week is “love Allie” on Manifest Yourself. lol 🙂 The believing is the hardest part for me… but I am working on it.

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  8. Well first off, your trainer is such a hunk. Well done, friend. 😉

    I’m so excited to follow you on this journey to your bikini competition! And you KNOW I’ll be right there with a little tough love, if necessary. 🙂

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    • Thanks, Emily! I am so happy that I (literally) ran into you in the hallway at FitBloggin. I appreciate any and all tough love! I know I’ll need it.

      I’ll pass along the compliment to Matthew. 🙂

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  9. Woo hoo!! So excited for you, Kim, it’ll make such a huge difference to have a coach. I think you’re about to be blown away by what you’re capable of achieving!

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  10. In all honesty… it’d be hard to concentrate with him training me. #singlegirlproblems
    However, I have faith in your motivation, determination, and focus;0

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    • Hahahaha! I figure that I’ll be too embarrassed to punk out and not do my best with him training me. lol. I’ll do my very best to focus for the both of us.

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  11. Aliah says:

    I proud/excited/amped for your pursuits! I know you got this and I look forward to your videos, meal plans, and sharing what you learned. And you know I will be at that competition with a sign and root you on!

    My biggest fear when I announce a new goal is accountability. I stopped saying I want to lose x, y, or z pounds because even when I did I wasn’t happy. I’m at the point now where I want to be healthy, run a 10K, be a role model for my sons, etc. I am lucky to have family and friends to support me and try to keep the naysayers and fakes at bay.

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    • Thanks girlie! That means the absolute world to me! xo

      And I am the same way. Accountability is so hard for me. BUT I figure with a coach, my blog, social media, and support… I’ll have the pressure to stay on target with this goal. I still can’t believe it!

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  12. Oh I remember Matthew! I think you are going to have a major following on this journey if you keep posting photos like that! Lol!

    Seriously though, I’m so excited for you and I really wish you the absolute best with this goal. I think it’s amazing and I can’t wait to watch it unfold. Also, can we just take a minute to congratulate you on how positive you are despite the changes you’ve endured this year. You are always looking to improve your situation, which is admirable. Good luck Kimberly! 🙂

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    • Awww, thanks so much Brittany. I really appreciate your kind words. I’m working on it, day by day. I am also trying to stay busy, so with training and the extra endorphins, I hope this will help!

      + I agree about the photos of Matthew! smh…I already got comments straight to him on Instagram! 🙂

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  13. Lean Lena says:

    You go, girl! I’m so excited for you!
    Just wanted to let you know that I’m here for you, too if you need to talk at any point.
    I look forward to seeing what you accomplish on this new journey!

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  14. Im so excited for you and your new journey!!! He looks like he takes no nonsense!!

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    • I know! When you chat with him he is super sweet though… but I have a feeling, I won’t be saying that during my training sessions. 🙂

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  15. So happy that you and Matthew were able to work together! Nothing but good stuff happening from here!

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    • Thanks, girlie! Working on getting fit now for FitBloggin15 + beyond! 🙂 lol #fitforlife

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  16. I can’t wait to follow you as you work toward these incredible goals! I know you can do it.

    I think I could do just about anything with him as a coach! 😉

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    • Hahaha, thanks, Erica! I think so too. 🙂

      I keep thinking about the advice you gave during that panel at FitBloggin too. When you talked about making yourself and your blog a big deal that stuck with me. I am constantly underestimating myself and my blog – I need to have the mindset of what I would like to be one day. I’m working on it, and I think this competition will become a large part of that. THANK YOU! xo

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