The title and theme of this post was snatched from my new blogger/IRL bff, Allie from Vita Train For Life. After reading her recap of the FitBloggin Conference, this seemed like the perfect way to talk about this next phase of my fitness journey/ bikini competition journey.
In all honesty... I know that I need to do something drastic to kick my butt into high gear. I’ve been on this weight loss, weight gain, let’s just eat intuitively, no what about Paleo, back to Weight Watchers… and everything else under the sun cycle for way to long.
In all honesty… I haven’t worn a bathing suit in public for over 4 years. It’s been so long that I really stopped counting. I just don’t do it.
In all honesty… I am tired of living in a body that I am not proud of, despite how everyone else feels when they look at me. When I try to be open and honest with friends about how I feel about my body, the comments I get are always super nice. “OMG, fat where?” “Lose weight? For what?” “You have curves! Embrace them!” But I know that I am not as healthy as I can be.
In all honesty… I really want to train my body to be at a point where I have reached an optimal level of fitness and my knees no longer are an issue. The excess weight I carry does not help my knees at all. So for me, despite what others say, I know weight loss is a must.
In all honesty… I know that I cannot do this alone so I am working with a new coach + trainer.
As I was editing one of his photos for this post, I realized that he is the first man I have ever featured on Manifest Yourself! Now if you attended the A Healthy U Conference back in May, you realize that he looks pretty familiar. He was one of our panelists on the Mind, Body, and Soul Connection panel that I moderated. Needless to say… he was a big hit for his knowledge… and his good looks. #justsayin
After the conference, I wanted to pick his brain about competing, but I was just way too nervous. But my girl Cassandra kept on pushing me to reach out to him since her husband trained with Matthew and was getting some great results. Low and behold, after a few emails and a long chat at Starbucks this weekend, he’s officially my bikini competition coach.
As an accomplished body building competitor himself, and a fabulous personal trainer, I get the best of both worlds! He’ll be planning out my meal plans and workouts from now until I compete. I have my eyes set on a show on November 15th in NYC, but I want to wait a bit before I register. (Ya’ll know me… let’s take this nice and easy – even though I know my new workout schedule will be far from easy.) We will officially start my training schedule next week!
In all honesty… I’m excited, but also so nervous. I was very candid in my initial conversation with Matthew too. I know that I will be looking to him for support, guidance, and motivation. Ya’ll know this past year has been a hot mess for me. (There’s really no other way to say it now!) So I’m doing this to reach all of my fitness/wellness goals AND to prove to myself that I can commit to this journey too. Fitness is probably the one area of my life where I struggle with sticking to my goals.
Prepping for a bikini competition is all about discipline, focus, and determination. I know I have these traits in other areas of my life, so it’s about time I apply them to my wellness journey. So here we go! I hope that ya’ll will enjoy this next chapter of my personal journey to wellness. Here’s some insight to things you will be seeing:
- Detailed workouts and meal plans
- Mini- workout videos from my training sessions with Matthew
- Vlogging on YouTube talking about staying motivated and inspired inside and outside of the gym
- The highs, lows, and inbetweens of this journey
- Insight from Matthew on obtaining optimal fitness
- + MORE!
I thank you for reading this super long post, and I hope you’ll stay along for this crazy new phase of my life. I also want to shout out Allie again, for being such a huge supporter when I initially talked about wanting to do this at FitBloggin. She was so encouraging… and said that I am welcome to call/text/email whenever I start to freak out about this journey. So I’ve got Matthew, Allie, and a slew of friends who are uber supportive. Let’s do this!
Oh! And after reading this post from Emily this morning… I hope that YOU my readers will also be able to call me out on my *ish when you see me slipping. I need all the help and support I can get!
What is your biggest fear when you announce a new goal?
Who is in your support system?
*ALSO – my 1st Dietbet starts tomorrow! Hurry up and join us!*